‘The autumn scent in the air’ - 8th October 2020

Just before I left my hometown starting to live abroad, my painting teacher said to me, 

‘You don’t have to go so far abroad in order to master Art. Only if you would understand the love of your parents.’

My straight feeling of responding to his words was an unpleasant one. I was very young around that time, just turning to be 20 years old or so, and was kind of blind toward the depth of the meaning through his words. At that time I simply thought he said in such a way because he wanted to pass over his painting style and philosophy to somebody. So I took his words as simply he was trying to brainwash me in his way. (I was too young to face any objections. The fact is not true though, as I received tremendous supports from him, especially constant encouragement of the physical letters every month since then.)

Even after living abroad for years and years, his words would come up to my mind from time to time. I didn’t know why. I didn’t know why I was so reactive and rather upset toward his words, especially. Though now, I understand very well, since I came back to my hometown. Finally, I understood what was stored in my mind. 

When I was younger, most of my decisions were often made almost as if I were rebelling against my father. I was not conscious about this though. I was rather a passive child toward my father, and he was sort of the strong figure in my life, rather dominant to the point of like, if he would insist that Black is Red, then I followed his idea almost automatically. And I hated such a situation and felt weak of my attitude myself. Has he ever been supportive of anything that I really wanted to do?

Is there still a small girl who was timid living in my internal world? I would ponder this thought.

Since I came back to my hometown 5 years ago, having started to study the psychology and NLP, I slowly understand the whole internal landscape of the person ‘me’, and naturally learned the influence that I received from my parents and my way of associations to any relationships as a whole. I needed to do self-reflection for my misunderstandings too, which made my perception 

shifted in a drastic way more than I could have imagined before, especially toward my parents. 

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‘The jungle playground’ - 8th October 2020