The door of the carriage, the particular carriage in front of me was a half open, was about to leave the station. It was obvious, I didn’t have much time to think through. Though, at the moment, I looked up and checked the inside of the carriage which I was going to climb up to. 

A half open.  A half open. I do have a choice.

That particular scene reminds me of the dream I had for a long while ago. That made my footsteps toward stopped.

In the dream, the platform with the long line of the train carriages, which was somehow carrying all kinds of people, who I met through my personal history so far, all are there, as if each carriage reminds me of, my own growth through the memories shared with them.

I thought I said to myself, `No, not this carriage.`

Let the train passed over without me.

Silence came over afterward. Completely white silence in peace.

How I `don`t want` to feel, and How I `want` to feel. That is the only thing I knew. Take care of yourself, take care of your heart. 

The title of this kaleidoscopic photograph is, `Waking up`, from 14th February 2017.