‘The key to the roots’ - 14th October 2020

My mother had a tendency of hiding her feelings deep whatever the circumstances are. 

When I started to think about it, the way I have been interacting with people in the past, seemed to get overlapped with the way my mother has been connected with me. I could see it now. How silly I was, how blind I was, not being able to see myself with such a missing puzzle. 

Why was it so natural to me not showing what I felt each moment and not validating my own feelings? What exactly was I afraid of, really?

What I wanted to say to the past me, was what I wanted to say to my mother. When I realized this fact and started to see the whole family dynamism, I was in a shock to handle my mind for a while. 

It took a long curve to realize this. Having started to realize who I was really, that made me shift the way I see my mother as a person. This gradual and slight shift changed the way I see the character in her. Since my father had a tendency of the narcissistic traits of ‘my way, or the high way’, I would tend to see her as a selfless person who would bury her feelings in herself, and that made me frustrated and felt abandoned as she would never be on my side, even further to the point of looking down on her as a weak person. There have been all sorts of frustrated emotions toward my mother and I simply didn’t understand her for why she was the way she was. But now, along with my journey of studying how our minds work and our hearts are, I gradually realized the amazing essence of her attitude toward the daily lives. It is not easy to keep our emotions in check, especially under the circumstances of such a family dynamism. A learning curve of the boundary. 

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‘The fluid season’ - 14th October 2020