‘The place to fit in’ - 19th October 2020

Continuous from the previous story.(Here)

The yoga workshop was in the semi-basement of an ordinary 7-story condominium. Before I entered the studio, I was given a blindfold (the one you use when you would sleep on that airplane). What? The inside of the room was pitch black. I knew that there were some people just by the signs and sounds, but in fact, I didn’t even know how many people there were. If I didn’t know K, who is leading the workshop, I might have run away.

K said to me.  ‘For the time being, look for your own place. you would have to move around a lot, so it’s better to secure enough space for yourself’ - Isn’t yoga that stretching exercise?

After that, some aggressive music of the drum & bass started to turn on, I blindfolded, and the workshop started. Along with the music, I heard the voices of various people. It was more than the simple expression of “hearing”. Moaning, screaming, angry, all sorts of rants. And sometimes crying. How could you say that far?  There was a chorus of voices like a mass of frustration and anger. Simultaneously, there was a sign of kicking and punching the air.

At first, I felt a bit distant from what was happening there. If I was in an ordinary state, then I might have misjudged them as collectives of some kind of a weird religion. However, it was perfect for my mental state at that time. Blindfolded and not sure who is doing what. Everyone was acting rather mad! 

‘OK! Here I am. In the middle of nowhere. I can be as loud as I can. So I decided to join them and started screaming and punching the air, all sorts of things that came up to my mind. Music also spurred that atmosphere. I didn’t know how much time had passed. Emotions are sometimes odd, not really explainable verbally, simply there like the weather. Before I knew it, the one-hour workshop was over, and at the end, for some reason, only “laughter” remained. I wanted to laugh without any reason,  I wanted to laugh aloud.

With the blindfolds removed, everyone had a refreshing look in the light with the curtains open. They were all ordinary people. I mean, you would never imagine what would have been taking place there from the appearance of the people who were just standing there looking so fresh.  After the session, I jumped into a nearby healthy cafe and drank about three glasses of freshly picked vegetable juice at once.

My body became “empty” and at the same time full of energy, and for some reason, I felt like I could do anything. I could understand why it was in the morning. Now, the day is about to start fresh. In short, any means can be used to cleanse the “black” from us. I experienced that.

Here are takeaways

1.  Acknowledge your excess negative feeling within you, instead of avoiding to feel.

2. Move your body - releasing your acknowledged negativity, then naturally the positive air would flow into you, without reasoning, just feel it.

3. Believe that you would never know who knows who. It means, even when you feel like you are in a stuck situation, there is always a way out. 

4. At the best of all, believe in yourself, your value. You do deserve to be. ‘how do you know what triggers you till facing the triggers’ - what seems to be the current issues might be only the reflection of your key toward the paradigm shift.

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I would love to get to know you a bit better, and explore your dreamscape!

I will be a listener for your story!

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‘Less is more’ - 19th October 2020

‘The positioning shift’- 18th October 2020

Your voice matters, at the soul level.

It is always worth speaking out with your own voice.

By looking at how the sunlight is reflected on the wall, you can see how things are changing constantly. As time flows, the positioning of the light and the shadow, white and black, the seen and the hidden would be slowly changing. The abundance of the sun, where is it? Where am I? 

It is always in the ‘present tense’. ‘Verb’

From my personal diary, dated 31st May 2018

A workshop `Time capsule` project is OPEN now!

If you are interested in, please check out the page `Time Capsule` 

I would love to get to know you a bit better, and explore your dreamscape!

I will be a listener for your story!

Please check out this page ’ memory-bank’ also for a question list, if you are interested in a session with me!

As some people have been asking me which platform I use for my website, I place the link here. This platform ‘Format’ has a good supportive team, who are almost 24 hours available and has been so helpful for me leading this far with their various advice and tips! I can confidently recommend you if you are interested in creating your new websites!

‘The light and the shadow’ - 18th October 2020

‘Not let the past define the future’ - 16th October 2020

I have been separated from my son’s father and returned to Japan with my child about 5 years ago, but I have lived as a single mother with my son in the country where my son was born for about 5 years. I would like to talk about the “strange” and now precious learning memories that I have experienced during that time. I’m sure I wouldn’t open the door if I was not in such a state as ‘whatever’.

Soon after we moved to the country, my son’s father has left our home and became me and my son. I didn’t know much about the country yet. I didn’t know any people that I could count on at that time. So my only option seemed to be was going back to Japan. I have never imagined that I would be going to live there for the next four years then. My son was only around four years olds, just started to go to the local kindergarden. Surely he was attached to his father just the same way as other children would do. 

My son was reading the air sensuously, even though he didn’t know the situation in detail. There were many times when I packed up my luggage, prepared for my return. Every time, he would have a chickenpox and had to wait at home for two weeks, then another trial he would get a fever again, and even to the point of seeing a suitcase was enough for him to cry, rolling on the floor and refusing. When I saw such a son state, I couldn’t move.

The worst of all it seemed at that time was that the law in the country was strict and I couldn’t take my son out of the airport without his father’s permission. In such a situation, all I had to do was sending my son to the nursery school in the morning and picking him up in the evening as usual, as if everything was going well. 

In such an unrelenting daily life, one day I bumped into a person named K, who I was introduced at a movie screening gathering held by an acquaintance. K has been practicing meditation and spirituality under an Indian yogi for a while and has just returned to the country recently. He was also dressed as being a monk. 

‘Early in the morning, I have an intensive hard yoga workshop. Are you interested?’

When I asked the time, it was from 6.00 to 8.00 in the early morning! Hey? I thought. Why is it so early in the morning? Who would come?

‘It’s best to do it early in the morning.’

More than I hadn’t had much things to do and I didn’t know anybody who I could talk to closely,  I felt restless with my messed-up situation. So I thought that it is a good and healthy idea to join such a workshop. 

 (It will be longer, so I will continue tomorrow.)

A workshop `Time capsule` project is OPEN now!

If you are interested in, please check out the page `Time Capsule` 

I would love to get to know you a bit better, and explore your dreamscape!

I will be a listener for your story!

Please check out this page ’ memory-bank’ also for a question list, if you are interested in a session with me!

As some people have been asking me which platform I use for my website, I place the link here. This platform ‘Format’ has a good supportive team, who are almost 24 hours available and has been so helpful for me leading this far with their various advice and tips! I can confidently recommend you if you are interested in creating your new websites!

‘The invisible support hands’ - 16th October 2020